once and now

once, i was a kid.
now, i was claimed that i'm still a kid.
i wonder,
do i really never grow after all these years.

once, i heard the one i heart whispered
you're kid-alike
that juncture, my heart was broken
the jokes from god, again now,
the same sentence by a another was repeated.

once, my wound was healed.
but the scar will always be here.
now, i got a new wound on my old scar,
same spot, same taste,
but it double up the pain.

once, i think that i am mature enough,
but now my stupidity makes me laugh.
the confident i have, it's exist virtually,
the soul i have, it's vanished completely.

once, i look at the mirror,
it's obvious.
now, when i take a look at it, i doubt.
what is me?
the miracle mirror,
reflect two different view.
kid or adult?

once, when i was a kid those days,
love is given ubiquitously.
now, as a post-kid,
you just don't deserve any.